I Wonder

I feel disconnected. From my surroundings and many of the people in it. I feel stagnant. It's ironic that I am feeling this way amidst the approach of one of the greatest achievements of my life; I'm 3 months from graduating from college. I don't know where I'm headed, but I do know some things. I know who I am, I know where I want to be, and I know where I don't want to be. 

I always have this thought: If I were to die today, what legacy would I leave behind? Who's life did I change? What contributions did I make during my time on this earth? Did I waste away the time that God so graciously gave me?

Sometimes I feel like I do. Sometimes I feel like I'm not living up to my full potential. Like I said, I know where I wanna be and what it takes to get there. Sometimes I just scare myself with my lack of drive I have to just get up and do it. Sometimes I wonder if it's just my fear of actually succeeding that holds me back. Sometimes I wonder about a lot of things.